久违的心情倾诉。。

好久没有写日志了。。每次开这个网页，一定是有声么开心或不开心的。。这次是因为一件不开心的事而开这个网页的。。到底是什么呢？

好久没有被人这样教训了。该怎么写呢？我要拥有一个不是很贵的东西来解闷。我告诉了XX。。我并没有要求他有什么实际的行动。只是循例告诉他而已。但是却被他教训了一顿。我不奢求他像其他的XX，知道了儿子需要什么，就会尽力去满足他的要求。因为一路以来，我都是自己去想办法满足自己的需求，所以我已经习惯了。

从小到大，我就算考到好成绩，他也是认为那是也是理所当然的。我知道读好书使我身为一个学生的责任。但是我始终是一个平凡的小孩。我也需要鼓励的。。他的不闻不问，真是令人伤心失望！如果当初你能够给那么多一点点儿的鼓励和教导，相信现在的我必定能够更成功。

总而言之，一个父亲的责任实在是很重大。如果没有心理准备，真是不能当父亲。因为这会影响一个小孩子的一生。毕竟小孩是无知的。他们需要父母的指导的。

CNY

Hello people. This entry is written on the first day of CNY. Nothing heavy. Just an entry without much reflection. =P

Well, another new year has come. And this is my first time celebrating CNY as a working adult. Nothing much different. I am still receiving ang pao. =)

Anyway, I hope this year would be a prosperous and of great health year for my family and me.

Life-death

Warning: This entry might be (or, is) very pessimistic. Leave it if it does not benefit you.

Thinking about life, what is the ultimate goal of our lives? Ultimately, we all will die, and leave all the things that we are having NOW behind. I still remember what my late 2nd uncle told me last time. He was a pagan. He told me that when a person dies, that is it. It's just like a chicken being slaughtered (this was so funny for me last time). That the person will just sleep forever.

If it was really so, so what if I had or had not experienced anything? So what if I had or had not owned anything? So what if I led a wealthy life or a poor life? Ultimately, we will all return to God (according to my belief).

Anyway, life is short. We are given this period of time to experience His creation. So, just leave worries and troubles behind and live our life to the fullest. Enjoy the everyday that given to us.

Reflection of the day

1. My grandmother came out with a foochow dialect poem. The poem highlights the virtue of thriftiness, which I need to really understand and appreciate.
2. As a lady herself, she should not have behold and support gender discrimination. Daughters are always seen as the weaker ones. This is seriously not applicable anymore in the society nowadays.
3. Do we need lots of money to lead a happy life? Definitely, the answer is no. Perhaps, this way of perception is often regarded as a way of escapism for the middle income family. However, this can be a reasonable fact! Money can also bring lots of trouble.

Till then, let's meet in the next entry.

Experience

Experience is really the greatest teacher. From experience we start to realize, to learn and to appreciate.
To illustrate, after experiencing many different lifestyles, from the mundane one to the rock-and-roll one, a middle path between the two is figured out. There is always a shared zone between the two, which, I regard as the best path. The combination of the essence of the two makes another more unique and more complete choice. Well, life does not have to be too rigid. We can always come out with the mode of life that suits us the best.
Enjoy our lives to the best.

on the verge......

Hi there. Have you all ever encountered this situation before?
When we are on the verge of completing something, out of a sudden, there is an unexpected and disturbing element that sabotages the whole thing? This makes us really tired and helpless. Some say this is a challenge that put forward to make us stronger. Optimistically, it is. Otherwise, it's demotivating and frustrating!~

vanity

Things are difficult when it is at the initial stage. We have to adapt, and to think of what is waiting ahead for us to experience and to explore. Then, we have to think of how to excel, how to make us more outstanding than the others. Whether we want to pursue another level of education is another concern.

We work during working days, and we are off during holidays. When we are working, we are waiting for holidays. When we are on holidays, we are hoping that the holidays will not end too soon, which is rather impossible. On and off, and on and off. Time flies. What do we get ultimately? What is the final destination of ours?

Is this what people call 'Life is vain'?