Proud to be me

Being a member of a middle-income family, I ought to learn things by my own. My parents are busy maintaining the family. They have been trying their best, I know, but due to their educational qualification and luck (though I perceive that as the minor factor), they could give the family the basic needs. Learning how to behave, learning how to live, learning how to take care of the others are not easy. I learn all those through imitation. My parents are my role models.
Actually, learning those by ourselves are better, and in fact, more practical than having somebody telling you that you should behave in such a manner and you should not do this and that. Sometimes, I thought that is the way my parents brought me up intentionally. They want me to learn things through experience. However, though this way of learning is more effective, it needs a doubled effort to do so. We really need to be critical and mature in our way of thinking.
Anyway, I am proud to be me. Thanks to my parents, for shaping me well.

人生如戏，戏如人生

很久没有用华文来写文章了。 这次就让我用华文来写吧。
所谓“人生如戏，戏如人生，”观众明知道戏剧里面所发生的都是导演及编剧组所构造的，但是为什么他们还是看到很入迷呢？难道导演及戏剧组真的有什么魔力让观众们定时的锁定在电视机面前吗？其实，我个人认为，电视剧里面的每一项情节和故事都是有可能在我们的日常生活中发生的。有些可能是每天都发生的，只是我们没有察觉及体验到。
这里所说到的重点是，观众们在欣赏机关看电视剧时，都必须报这一刻开放既有思维的心去分析及体验导演及戏剧组所要沟通的信息。这样观众们才不会浪费了他们宝贵的时间去看对他们本身没有意义的节目。一旦他们领悟到电视剧里面的信息，他们就不会浪费时间了。这才能达到看电视剧真正的意义。

Reflection after watching 'Tsunami"

We always do not believe in things that are out of norms. We only believe them when things happened. Wouldn't it be too late already if we believed them when damages occur? Weird things happen. Open up our minds. Everything is possible.

As empty as a shell

I am just like a shell, empty inside.
I fill the emptiness with material satisfaction.
Food, my desired gadgets and luxurious feelings.
Would that be sufficient to fill my emptiness?
I doubt.

3 options

I was having a reflective mind just now. And, the following options in live came across my mind.

1. Looking forward and never look backward. When you choose this, you will keep on developing, in both aspects of good and bad. Since you did not stop and look backward, you wouldn't know whether you are developing positively or negatively. This is why history is very important. =)

2. Stop once in a while and look back what has actually happened. Well, this mode would give you a slower development. Since you always being reflective on what you have done, you might need a longer period of time to withdraw yourself from the past and move forward. But, this mode is always a good one for me. Through my own experience, I always spend a long time to reflect on what I have been going through. And, I can't move on as long as I am reflecting. Well, I can actually, but, it would just be my physical entity that is moving on, whereas my mind is still get hooked in the past.

3. Trapped in the past. This option is a bit similar to the second option. When somebody is reflecting too long before moving on, he might have the tendency to be trapped in the past. Those who have chosen this will never move on. They will keep on grumbling and complaining why they have been treated in such a way. These people will never succeed in their lives.

So, which one would you choose?

I can't stand it anymore

I can't stand it anymore.
He laughs in front of his laptop all by himself.
He screams suddenly in front of his laptop.
He smiles blankly looking at the chemistry book.
He giggles and speaks to himself in the bath room.
He has all the characteristics of a unhygienic person.
He has the tidiest arrangements of his belongings.
I can't bear it anymore.
But what can I do?
He is too old to be given advice.
I can't stand it anymore.

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt like a zombie?
Where you do not know what you want exactly.
Where you will grab anything when you are walking in a hypermarket and pay it at the counter.
Where you eat but do not know what is the taste of the food like.
Where you have no expression when you are watching something funny.
Where you are merely faking yourself in front of your friends.
Where you just nod your head when your friends are talking to you.
Have you?