Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I want...

I would like to voice out everybody's voice from the bottom of their hearts.

I am just an ordinary people.
I want to be heard whenever I am talking.
I want to be loved by my family, friends and the ones that I care.
I need whatever that a human needs.
I don't want to cry.
I want to laugh.
I want to be happy all the time.
I want to be blessed.
I want everything that please me.
I don't want misfortunes to happen.
I want no conflicts among people.
I want peace.

Statements above show what a person wants. But, how many of us can get all these?

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Exhausted or frustated?

I don't want to support and pro anyone,
for there would always be a side who will feel offended.
I want to be neutral and stand on the fence,
for it would be the best for me.
I welcome those who really want to be close to me,
for I really need sincere and supportive friends.
I am tired of being supportive to any side, really,
for I am a nobody to give support.
I won't approach those who stay away from me anymore,
for I have done enough of that.
I don't want to crack my head and make people happy,
for I will get nothing and even hurt ultimately.
I want to be myself,
for I am me.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

When you are not in the mainstream, then, you are ‘the others.’

We always have the mindset that the mainstream is the yardstick or the epitome of the positive aspect or the right side. When people have that kind of mindset, everybody seems to follow blindly whatever that the majority does, regardless the appropriateness or the rational of the action. Consequently, when everybody does the same thing, then, that thing would automatically become the appropriate thing to be done.
The core of the issue here is that when you are thinking differently from the mainstream, would you still be treated equally and similarly by the majority? Definitely not! When you are different from the mainstream, you will be totally ignored by the majority. They would try, by all means, to exclude you from the community. That is when you will feel left out and disappointed. You feel such because you have been very dear to them and invest so much time and care and love that you feel your existence is very vital in their lives. Of course, it would be disheartening when you found out that all that were vain and useless.
Well, how would you face this problem of exclusion from the mainstream? The most essential matter here is that you have to be wise enough to say or to handle things. It is not that we just keep our opinions to ourselves. But, it is about how wisely we express our thoughts. We have to phrase our thoughts very carefully that it would not hurt the opposite side. If it was not working, then, you should try to exclude yourselves automatically from the mainstream, before they have the chance to do so. Then, you can form another mainstream. I am sure there would be people that have the same way of thinking and philosophy with you. As the saying goes “birds with the same feather flock together.” The same goes to human beings. If you were not meant to be somebody’s somebody, then, just let go, instead of feeling stupid and disappointed all the times.
Should we assimilate and adapt ourselves to the mainstream? It really depends on the situation. If the mainstream was right, then, you should correct your mindsets and join the mainstream. (However, sometimes we are just not that wise to notice that we are wrong.) However, as I have mentioned just now, the mainstream is not always correct. That is why we should really be critical in viewing things so that we would always be the correct ones.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Sense of belonging

At times, we would feel that we are lacking of something. It's not something concrete yet it brings a great impact in your live. What is it so important that you would feel lost when that something is not with you? Exactly! The fact that you belong to somebody.

As in my case, I feel owned and secured as I have wonderful family around me. They are so supportive that I feel encouraged and zealed in whatever I am engaged and involved in. I love my family for that. Family would be my primary solace and comfort if I were dealing with problems.

Undeniably, friends, as well, give us the sense of belonging. When you are away from your family, of course, your family still provides you with support, love and care, but to certain extent, you need your friends to be with you to solve problems and to share joy with.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

What is life?

I dreamed of my late second uncle last night. He was still in healthy condition in the dream.
He was a pagan. He did not believe that spirits will ultimately go to either heaven or hell. Where would he go then? Where is his spirit now?
I heard from my family that my second aunt starts working now. I understand how she feels. She would rather working instead of staying alone in the house. Those heart-breaking memories would certainly kill her. What is her aim of living now? She depended totally on my second uncle before this. Their children are all grown-ups and live in different places. She is all by her own now.
What is life actually? Growing up, then working, then dying? Is that all about life?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


I have been so busy since the raya break ended. Basically, I was doing my assignments and simulation for Persatuan Pelajar. I was really exhausted both physically and mentally. I reflected on it last night. Can I call that busy and tiring? I did my work by sitting cozily in front of the laptop, with the companion of my favourite songs. Compared to the farmers and the other blue-collar workers, they need to allocate more physical strength and power to do their work, whereas I just need to move my fingertips and a bit of my mental processing to get things done. How lucky I am.
p.s: Perhaps this is a sort of escapism to encourage myself to keep on doing my work.=)

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落
珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

If you grumbled too much
Then you would find it's hard to get up when you fall
Why people are so fragile
Please on the TV and watch
There are so many people are trying hard to survive
We should be appreciative
Be appreciative even you have nothing
[Adapted from a song by Jay Chow]